In my dreams…

November 24, 2007

 

 

You're in to this relationship that you expect that  you can handle everything. You know to your self that you already been here and everything is just the same as before. But i guess it is not true… having this kind of relationship is not that easy as i expected. So many adjustment especially if you are a bisexual. You feel that you are secured in someways but you aren't, you feel that she / you will understand  her / you totally because you are same, but i guess not. Full of understanding they say.. full of confident, but i guess this won't work for me…because  i was expecting the unexpected and  i keep my self blind from the truth. I thought my past and present is all the same because of love, but i guess love is just love and the hidden feelings you want to express are not all understandable by them… because they are not the same as the opposite. They are just like that. Now i realized that those expectations from my past is just a dummy in my mind by looking on there appearance, but inside… we are both the same. Well i guess all of my expectations are wrong and this blindness should be gone right away. Because i will never be happy with this if i will stick to what all i know in my past. Knowing a person has a long way to go and i think all of that expectations is just in my dreams.